Friday, February 03, 2012

wear: muted.

i've been in a bit of a daze this week. my mind is preoccupied with the grief of our friends. i don't mean to bring it up all the time, but it's very fresh and i can't help but constantly think about what this family is experiencing. 
last night i dreamt about the visitation (which is tonight). it was emotional and awful, but also good for some reason. there were lots of peonies, which was nice; but also a boy dressed in head-to-toe neon green, which was odd.
anyway, i've been distracted. red lights and frozen pizza beware, you will likely be run and burned, respectively. also, if you and i are having a conversation, it's possible that i'm not really listening. sorry.
sweater: gap
scarf: target
gray henley (under sweater): forever 21
pants: heritage
flats: steve madden (super old) 

*i just want to be clear that i am not comparing my experience to what the family is going through. i hope that can go without saying, but i don't want anyone to misinterpret my reasons for writing about this. my sadness is nothing to the immeasurable grief they are experiencing. it's compassion and empathy for my friends that are the main source of my distraction. also, trying to make light of this dark time is just...coping. it's either laughter or tears. and sometimes both.


  1. i'm glad you are sharing your experience, and although it may seem immeasurable, it's *your* experience and you are hurting. i liked your tribute and memories to him in an earlier post -- and after reading his obituary and learning more about him, he was quite the light for our community. sending care to you.

  2. B, stay strong. Death isn't an easy hurdle to deal with. It takes time to heal. So do what you can, but don't be afraid to break down, a good cry never hurt anyone. xoxox.

  3. So sorry about your friends :( but on the upside, you look great! I love this outfit.

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  5. I love this post.
    All of it.

    Death is such a weird thing. Weirder when you loose someone you love.
    My brother in law was killed about 2 1/2 years ago.
    I wrote about it here;

    Red Lights should be run, and it ok that pizzas will be burned...and then red lights will not be run, and pizzas wont be burned.

    Thank you for sharing your feelings and thoughts. It doesn't distract from what your friends family is going through.

    **I had to correct my misspelled words...**


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