Monday, October 11, 2010

think.

feeling funk-y. 
i'm not sick. i've just been in a bit of a funk the past week. (hence the silence around here.) last week was the second week straight of "blackout" with mr.a. no calls, no texts, no e-mails, no communication. i did get a letter, which was wonderful. but, by week two, the lack of contact had really got me down. there were some things that i just needed to talk to him about. i could tell my friends or family, but i wanted him to tell me it was going to be okay. i needed to hear it from him. i've had trouble falling asleep at night and waking up in the morning. i didn't really want to go anywhere. i didn't really want to do anything. i just wanted to hide in my bed and hug my pillow. i even resorted to calling his phone just to talk to his voicemail. i knew he wouldn't be calling me back--it just made me feel better for a minute.
but on friday night, the call finally came.

it didn't help pay any bills or fold any laundry;
but for the first time in two weeks, i slept peacefully that night.

3 comments:

  1. Oh, I don't know how you do it! I'm so glad the call finally came. I hope you got to talk to him for a long time!

    I'm still fairly new to your blog, but I've missed you here. :) Hope today is great!

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  2. Glad to have you back!!! I've missed you too!

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  3. Sending you some stranger support from the blogosphere! I check in every day, and worry when we don't hear from you. :) You're an amazingly strong woman and mother and wife to be handling this separation. Hang in there!

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